Zane Gonzalez, kicker for the Washington Commanders, has been making headlines not just for his performance on the field, but also for his openness about living with obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD). Diagnosed since grade school, Gonzalez’s journey with OCD is marked by challenges that manifest through repetitive behaviors and routines. Despite these hurdles, he has managed to excel in his professional career, becoming a key player for the Commanders.
Gonzalez's OCD symptoms are well-documented and include actions such as repeatedly adjusting his sock, rubbing his hair, and tapping his helmet before putting it on. These routines extend to the field as well, where he has a unique practice of doinking a kick off the right upright and over the crossbar. Stress often triggers his symptoms, leading to internal battles that demand significant mental fortitude.
"It's like, it's not nervousness. It's just kind of a tic-type deal," he explains about his compulsions.
Through therapy and the unwavering support of his wife, Lizzy, Gonzalez has learned to manage his symptoms effectively. His wife's understanding and patience play a crucial role in helping him navigate daily challenges.
"For example, like last night resetting my alarm about 100 times making sure it's OK kind of gets on my wife's nerves a little bit, but at times it's just kind of how it goes," Gonzalez candidly shared.
Gonzalez's transparent discussion of OCD has resonated with many, prompting others with similar experiences to reach out via social media. The support extends to his teammates and coaching staff, including Washington coach Dan Quinn.
"I am super happy that he was able to discuss that, And if that is a chance for him to assist one other person, I think that takes just a lot of courage and tells you a lot about who he is, not just as a ballplayer but as a man," remarked Quinn.
Even amidst the spotlight on his condition, Gonzalez's performance remains impressive. He has successfully made 5 of 7 field goals and all 19 extra points in six games, stabilizing the Commanders' kicking situation after being the team's seventh kicker since March and fourth during this season.
"I'm a little embarrassed to say that I didn't know," admitted teammate Tress Way, highlighting the subtlety with which Gonzalez carries himself despite his challenges.
"It's all in good fun. He's not sensitive about it," added Tyler Ott, underscoring the positive atmosphere within the team regarding Gonzalez's routines.
"I would just say honestly everybody in the locker room has something they revert back to to get into the moment, and obviously he got a little more attention," Ott continued.
One of Gonzalez's most significant moments came with a game-winning field goal against the Tampa Bay Buccaneers in the wild-card round. This achievement not only bolstered his confidence but also demonstrated his ability to rise above personal challenges to deliver under pressure.
Gonzalez's journey with OCD has not been without difficulties. He recalls struggles from his childhood when tasks like homework became overwhelming.
"I remember as a kid, I would get really upset to the point where it was like I really couldn't even do my homework," he reflected.
Despite these challenges, Gonzalez maintains a positive outlook. His resilience and dedication serve as an inspiration not only to those with OCD but to anyone facing personal battles.
"Whenever you're having one of those situations come up, whatever it may be, you think the worst possible situation's going to come of it," Gonzalez explained. "It could be the most unrealistic, crazy, unimaginable thing, and people will be like, 'You're crazy for thinking that stuff.' Which, I'm aware I'm crazy to think that stuff. But that tic just constantly is like kneading at you. It's never-ending. It's always just there."
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